Clearly, from these first few posts, it seems like a lot of my life was consumed by diabetes, and it definitely was. Part of my "recovery" from my eating disorder and also a life consumed by diet, was a focus outside of the diabetic world. These two illnesses somehow got meshed together over the years as I was getting progressively sick.
The reason being is that when someone would ask me if I wanted to go out to eat, I could get away with not going because I didn't know the exact carb count or someone would ask me if I wanted something to eat (anything really) and I could justify not having it by saying that my blood sugars were high and I couldn't eat it now.
You can see how by developing and eating disorder and having diabetes can play into each other. But my life now is full of things that have nothing to do with diabetes and/or ED (which is short for eating disorder). ED is just an easier way to talk about something in the third person. In the hospital, when addressing the disorder, it was just easier to say "ED."
Even though I still have to balance all of this on a daily basis, and EDs don't just go away, the struggle gets easier most days, and my life is now pulled in many different directions. Diabetes is a part of my life in a big way as it plays into healthy choices and the lifestyle that I lead, but it most definitely is NOT my whole life, and I like it that way.
Hi Megan. Thanks so much for your comment on my blog and for sharing your blog and journey with me. Although I have not ever had a full eating disorder, I can relate with how diabetes changes the way you look at everything you put in your mouth and everything little thing you do with your body. The emotional impact is huge--and it is by no means easy. I am so sorry about your struggles, but I do believe we are all have the strength and courage to get through it. (And I know you will!) :) Stay in touch- Heidi
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