Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Back to writing :)


 I took a little hiatus for a while and started writing with my friend Morgan on the other blog, but I am going to be posting on here a lot too! Did anyone check out the other blog? Thoughts?

Ok, so where have I been the last year? haha... I got busy to say the least! Not that I am not busy anymore, it's busy in a different way! I got out of a relationship about 6 months ago and have been doing some soul searching and working on some life changes since then!

Like after every almost two year relationship, I fell apart a bit. And I let myself and had a lot of compassion for myself. It took a good 3 or 4 months of letting myself be sad, wallow a bit, get support from friends and family, and really take a look at everything to be in the place I am today! And I am SO grateful for all the friends and family that were so supportive and loving! It's a lot to lose your best friend and a ton of people you are used to talking to daily. In my family we are friendly people. And I thought after a breakup, it's okay to still talk to the people you were surrounded by for almost two years. Apparently, this is not the norm. I really like people and the connections I make are never less than 100% real, so it was startling to me to say the least when I was told I couldn't talk to or be friends with any one. We are just not meant for each other and I think it was friendly,  and we just parted ways, so all is good everyone! :)

If each man or woman could understand that every other human life is as full of sorrows, or joys, of heartaches and of remorse as his own… how much kinder, how much gentler he would be.
William Allen White

What I have learned from entire ordeal is that. I am happy with myself. I am glad I handled every situation like I did. I was always genuine, true to myself, my feelings, and my morals. I handled everything well. The only thing that I ever worried about is what everyone thought. Who was saying what, and was anyone talking about me in a bad way and were feelings hurt. I had one person completely blind side me, frankly when you think you are talking to a friend, talking about life, you never think they will betray you or tell people you were looking for information, when you were just hurting and talking to someone you thought you could trust. It's a two way street, and if the friendship is both ways, betrayal sucks. Breakups are never fun for either party, so my only wish is that everyone knew how good the relationship was for both of us and how we helped in each other with a lot. Hopefully at one point this will all blow over and everyone will realize what it really was. Good.

I also found out (which I always knew) I am insanely honest. Maybe too much so. I need to guard my heart a little bit more and not give it away easily. If you ask me how I am, I will tell you how happy I am as well as what I am struggling with if you ask. In the same since, I will tell my friends what's been going on. My family is really open and in everyone's business. Not all families are like that and don't know what their family members are struggling with, which was always eye opening and different to me. If my cousin or friend or whoever is struggling with something, I am on the phone with them, listening. Again, a lot of people don't have the patience for this. It's just what we do and I wouldn't have it any other way. :) For me, it's never healthy to keep everything to yourself. It's healthy to talk about things with other people and let them in! What life is about, connecting! Agree? Disagree?

My parents taught me to never give up on someone you love. To work through the hard stuff and to stick with relationships that are worth it to you. That is instilled in my soul, and the right person will really appreciate this!

I have since moved on, and I am feeling wonderfully happy and healthy! Meeting new people has opened up a lot of new opportunities! I think Lauren Conrad said it best when she said she sees every breakup as an opportunity, not a bad thing!

I turned 26 last week and have never had a such a huge out pouring of love in my entire life. Birthdays are always such a fun day, but this year just seemed special. I had the most beautiful texts from friends about when they were 26, the most heartfelt cards about how people valued my friendship. One friend told me "I was the most optimistic person she knew." Things like that really affirm me that I am doing the right things, living how I want to live. and effecting people in a positive way. I have the most incredible people around me.

My entire family decorated my entire kitchen and house with signs and toilet paper streamers to make my day. It was just really cool. I feel like I have been through enough where I know myself now more than ever and am happy to have only the people I'm surrounded with to be positive people who really all enhance my life in certain ways! To be 26, have those people, and continue push yourself to meet more people and do new things is how I always want to be.

I love people. All people. This is the main thing I have learned. I really like getting to know people, their stories, their hurts, scars, their biggest joys, what makes people happy. I really like kids too. I am fortunate enough that a lot of my friends are pregnant or have recently had babies, so that has been SUCH a blast hanging out with them. A lot of friendships have changed and molded, but have gotten deeper as well.

Well, that was really long winded, but wanted to fill everyone in on my life! All 1 of you that read this!

I will probably post some quotes that have been on my heart lately, and some fun things me and my friends did this summer!

The most recent adventure was paddle boarding! If you haven't tried it, DO IT! It's one of the most relaxing things to do on the water. We did it at sunset on a Friday night with beers. I could get used to that!  To be on the water on a big surfboard basically, paddling into the sunset, it was beautiful! I wish I could have taken pictures!

Happy Tuesday! Have an awesome week!



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